Been a very frazzled past couple of weeks, not much time to breath, so therefore I am sick-ish (yet again). This weird cough that comes from deep down (in my soul), very unusual. Hasn't knocked me out yet, so I can continue forth in my frazzleness. It's not good though, in the morning I can hardly speak.
This next week we are celebrating Panama/it's Spirit week. Monday and Tuesday we have school, the rest of the week was suppose to be vacation, but no. Wednesday we have off, completely off, which will be weird. Thursday we have stuffs for two hours and then have a Family Fun Fair until 12pm, where I was forced to have a game booth. (I am miffed <---new favorite word) My very rowdy, loud, frustrating 7th graders and I (plus sweet Shelley who willingly offered to help with this group) decided on a water balloon take of Angry Birds, we're calling it Angry Balloons. Here are the problems:
*Many pieces have to be present, which I'm not sure they will.
*Who knows how successfully active/athletic these kids will be
*Who knows how many people will show as this is somewhat last minute, on a supposed-to-be holiday, and also on a day where a parade will be blocking traffic.
*Lastly, I have 7th graders
Not only am I not looking forward to the added pressure of having to do this booth, but apparently there will be a pie throwing at a teacher booth, which I am thinking one will be marked for me. : / Why would it be me you ask? Well, good question; I have accidently (on purpose) thrown someone on the ground, and jumped on them to try and get my stolen cookies back (at Crossfire--not school), I have laughed extremely hard and almost wet my pants at someone who ran into a desk with glee, rolled over and hit his head on the underside of a desk, then was tripped after I'd given him a nickel-sized piece of candy. I've red-inked all over papers where it did look like my pen had broken. However, through all that, this pie would probably be more out of love (which I'm ok with).
On that note, I have noticed an alarming difference in my compassion and outward expressing of feelings. Before when these fool kids would give me hugs I'd give pats on the shoulder. In the past few weeks I've noticed a shift in their desire to make me laugh, a want to hug and be near and an unusual expression of love (the little notes they leave me I post on my wall). My feelings, as most of you know, have always been very maintained and inwards, I was not one to give hugs, and definitely not one to touch you...really ever. I have been praying that God give me the want to be able to do that because through these things I am involved in and teaching, I felt that needed to be present. So here it is and I am amazed. The love is overwhelming, even if that love is shown by killing me off in their writings. hahahah!
I went on a woman's retreat last weekend, it was held at a beautiful resort in Gamboa. I sat hanging in our hammock and couldn't believe where I was:
Mami and I's after school dance class seems to be going very well, we have seven or eight girls (range from 5th grade to 7th) and they are very eager. It was interesting how quickly that dance team mentality came back to me. When they would stop or goof off, like normal young girls, I found myself being, 'let's get back to work.' That strict structure returned, and I didn't even realize I had it! It is a lot of fun, but I am finding myself telling myself to 'just relax, it's for fun.' Oh, dance team days...you are so far away :D Mami and I really do enjoy it though, it's a lot of fun making up the dance, then teaching it to those willing girls and them wanting more, it's great.
I should probably do something productive now, I have over 30 short stories I should be reading. 'Should' being the key word here.
Thanks for reading. I'll see many of you very soon, holidays are less then two months away. I am eager to come back for the break, but I also need a recharge...please don't try and hug me though :D Hahah! Just kidding, I may just hug you back! Then you really wouldn't know who I am.
Love you guys.
-C
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